So I can have a really good day one day, and a completely terrible day the next.
Yesterday was really fun. I had such a good day.
And today I cried I was so angry. I can be annoyed, but I dont get angry very often. I achieved that today. Hurray.
I love being on a rollercoaster. I love my job.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Austin
So this past summer, I learned that my brother is the most frustrating piece of crap on earth. I also learned that he is one of my best friends. He is becoming less and less of the frustrating piece of crap and more of the best friend. I really like that I can go to him to chat about things, to play games, to have my back cracked, for a good laugh, when I need someone to cry to, or just someone to sit with.
Austin and I watch a number of shows when we are bored. I quite like this. It passes the time. We also multitask, by playing a game, or chatting while we watch these shows, and I really like this time of the evening. Sometimes we turn on the Family channel and mock the TERRIBLE acting that is on, or we watch Two and a Half Men. Which is a slightly better show. But I really just enjoy his company.
I think Austin knows me better than most people do, which is really cool. He knows the good, the bad and the ugly. And being my little brother, he still knows how to annoy the living hell out of me, and push any button he chooses to. But he is a really funny person, and most of the buttons he pushes he pushes the because he knows I will yell, laugh, call him a douche, and get even in an hour.
What I have come to realize is that now that the school year has started, we both have much less time to stay up late. We have less time for midnight snacks, and one am chats, and two am go fish games. I think it sucks, because I really like hanging with the kid. He's turned out ok. We've both still got some growing up to do. But I generally really like hanging out with him. Which is alot more than what I can say about when we were little. So all I'm asking is that it be summer again soon. Or atleast holidays (without the snow-obviously) so I can hang out with Austin.
Because, deep down, I love the most frustrating piece of crap on earth. He's my brother.
Austin and I watch a number of shows when we are bored. I quite like this. It passes the time. We also multitask, by playing a game, or chatting while we watch these shows, and I really like this time of the evening. Sometimes we turn on the Family channel and mock the TERRIBLE acting that is on, or we watch Two and a Half Men. Which is a slightly better show. But I really just enjoy his company.
I think Austin knows me better than most people do, which is really cool. He knows the good, the bad and the ugly. And being my little brother, he still knows how to annoy the living hell out of me, and push any button he chooses to. But he is a really funny person, and most of the buttons he pushes he pushes the because he knows I will yell, laugh, call him a douche, and get even in an hour.
What I have come to realize is that now that the school year has started, we both have much less time to stay up late. We have less time for midnight snacks, and one am chats, and two am go fish games. I think it sucks, because I really like hanging with the kid. He's turned out ok. We've both still got some growing up to do. But I generally really like hanging out with him. Which is alot more than what I can say about when we were little. So all I'm asking is that it be summer again soon. Or atleast holidays (without the snow-obviously) so I can hang out with Austin.
Because, deep down, I love the most frustrating piece of crap on earth. He's my brother.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
WOW. This is weird.
It is the first year in 11 years that I have not sung in a choir. YUCK!!!!!!!!
1998-2000 EJJC
2000-2004 ECC
2004-2008 Kokopelli
2005-2006 Grade 9 Choir
2006-2007 Grade 10 Choir
2008-2009 Grade 12 Concert Choir
1998-2000 EJJC
2000-2004 ECC
2004-2008 Kokopelli
2005-2006 Grade 9 Choir
2006-2007 Grade 10 Choir
2008-2009 Grade 12 Concert Choir
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QS5lJOvtqR4
The best song ever written.
Sorry ~Maria Mena
Vague sound of rain
pierces through my song again
but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
so I let it burn
I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more
And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
so sorry
He grabs my wrists
as my fingers turn into angry fists
and I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part
And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
I am sorry
Sorry ~Maria Mena
Vague sound of rain
pierces through my song again
but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
so I let it burn
I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more
And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
so sorry
He grabs my wrists
as my fingers turn into angry fists
and I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part
And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry
so sorry
I'm sorry
I am sorry
Friday, September 4, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Movies of 2009 I would like to see.
Julie & Julia (opens August 7th)
The Time Travellers Wife (opens August 14th)
(500) Days of Summer (opens September 4th)
Post Grad (opens August 21st)
All About Steve (opens September 4th)
Love Happens (opens September 18th)
Surrogates (opens September 25th)
The Invention of Lying (opens September 25th)
Couples Retreat (opens October 9th)
An Education (opens October 22nd)
2012 (opens November 13th)
New Moon (opens November 20th)
Planet 51 (opens November 20th)
Old Dogs (opens November 25th)
It's Complicated (opens December 25th)
The Time Travellers Wife (opens August 14th)
(500) Days of Summer (opens September 4th)
Post Grad (opens August 21st)
All About Steve (opens September 4th)
Love Happens (opens September 18th)
Surrogates (opens September 25th)
The Invention of Lying (opens September 25th)
Couples Retreat (opens October 9th)
An Education (opens October 22nd)
2012 (opens November 13th)
New Moon (opens November 20th)
Planet 51 (opens November 20th)
Old Dogs (opens November 25th)
It's Complicated (opens December 25th)
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
One way streets
I have lost ALOT of friends in the last few years. I have realized that I am one of those girls that people are friends with (in general) because its convenient. Yes, I have some friends who are clear exceptions but for the most part that is how things have worked for me.
Even people I have called my best friends in the past few years dont talk to me, unless I start up a conversation. I have lost so many friends. And I am SO hurt. and SO angry. I'm done with people who make me start all conversations. If they really wanted to talk to me, they could have started a conversation too. Its a two way street.
I am tired of starting all the conversations. I dont feel important to anyone anymore. I'm not important enough to start a conversation with. I dont need to be the one to always say the first words. Its nice sometimes, but I'm tired of living on one way streets.
I have learned that my close friends think I'm important, but I'm tired of feeling unimportant to everyone else. I give up. If you dont want to start a conversation, you clearly dont want to talk to me. I get that. I just give up caring so much.
Even people I have called my best friends in the past few years dont talk to me, unless I start up a conversation. I have lost so many friends. And I am SO hurt. and SO angry. I'm done with people who make me start all conversations. If they really wanted to talk to me, they could have started a conversation too. Its a two way street.
I am tired of starting all the conversations. I dont feel important to anyone anymore. I'm not important enough to start a conversation with. I dont need to be the one to always say the first words. Its nice sometimes, but I'm tired of living on one way streets.
I have learned that my close friends think I'm important, but I'm tired of feeling unimportant to everyone else. I give up. If you dont want to start a conversation, you clearly dont want to talk to me. I get that. I just give up caring so much.
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