Erin

I do have alot of AWESOME friends.

Erin, who is wicked.
I am really sad that I dont get to see you nearly enough. I really miss seeing you every day, and hearing about every last detail of your life. I miss having lunch with you in the blue building, and I miss watching HSM every weekend.

I just want you to know that I miss you. And even seeing you for 30 seconds the other day was nice. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I am so glad that summer is coming soon. I think we need to hang out more.

Ps. I am going to blog more. I am going to keep you up to date about things.

Know that I love you. Its a pretty big deal.

The wall is down.

My heart is still broken.
I still cry more than once a week about Joe.
I miss him, so much it makes me sick.

He hardly even knows my name.
He doesnt know anything about my life.

He doesnt know that I had to stop working because I emotionally couldnt handle things.
He doesnt know that I had to quit choir, because I caught swine flu.
He doesnt know that I have grown as a person, because he wont even talk to me anymore.

But even knowing these things, I cant turn my heart off. I cant pretend like I dont miss him almost every day.
I was pretending for a while. But I still miss him.